Saturday 31 December 2011

2011 - where i was, what was passing around me


2011 has been a long and strange year. At times it seemed it would never end: t & m’s wedding was so far away, but in other moments it all seemed to be hurtling past me and I just couldn’t keep up: the moments were piling on top of each other and I couldn’t seem to find space to breathe. 

At some point in the year I lost myself in some sort of metaphorical hole and emerged with little memory of that precise space: only questions of who was I, what did I want, who did I want to be, where did I want to be, and where did I want to go.

Sitting here, now, on the last day of 2011, I find it hard to believe that this is real and that so many things happened only this year. Did I really fly to Sydney to see Carmen and eat copious amounts of food in January this year? Did I really see the Antlers the same year I saw Seeker Lover Keeper? The first half of this year seems an age away, whilst the second half feels like it was just yesterday. 

Through it all various songs have floated around me; Adele seemed to be everywhere but the rest of these songs are split between places I was passing through and the places my friends and family brought me to and through. These songs are a record of those spaces and perhaps a hint at where I’ll be next.

To my wonderful friends and family, I love you all and thank you for being with me through 2011.

1.      George Bizet - L'amour Est Un Oiseau Rebelle (Maria Callas)
2.      Lykke Li - I Know Places
3.      The Antlers - Bear
4.      Kanye West - Lost In The World (Feat. Bon Iver)
5.      Sbtrkt – Hold On
6.      Avalanches - Since I Left You
7.      Little Red - Rock It
8.      Cat Power - Theme From New York, New York
9.      Fleet Foxes - Helplessness Blue
10.   Adele - Rolling In The Deep
11.   Bon Iver - For Emma
12.   Seeker Lover Keeper - Rest Your Head On My Shoulder
13.   Beirut - The Rip Tide
14.   Hackney Colliery Band - No Diggity
15.   Calvin Harris – Bounce (Feat. Kelis)
16.   Angus & Julia Stone - Big Jet Plane
17.   Badly Drawn Boy - Silent Sigh
18.   Fleet Foxes - Grown Ocean


Thursday 29 December 2011

a tower of silence

an experiment from my studio arts course....

Thursday 1 December 2011

hands

Where is your hand? I miss it so
        smooth out my skirt, untangle my hair-
        eyes cast down hide an anxious stare.
Time will heal wounds as spring melts snow:
one knows what's true, but even so-
sweet fictions are easier to bear,
than having what was, no longer there
but it's time: I must let you go
though just before you walk from me free,
please hold my hand, this one last time-
       so I'll remember what was mine:
       dreams, memories: a life once shared
ending now to divide this we,
       two souls once united, bound and paired.

(a 10 year work in progress, abandoned and then reviewed and then abandoned again. no more after this)